New Relationships... With your best friend!

Okay, so! I have a new boyfriend, and he's my best friend! I know... Being in a relationship with him sorta makes us being friends really weird. But, everyone knows that he likes me, and they say that we make a cute couple. I don't even know if I like him in a boyfriend/girlfriend way! :( I mean we already know so much about each other and we know what we're into... My mom even thinks he's a nice match for me! WTF?! I care about him and everything! It's just that, I can't imagine kissing him! It even makes me uncomfortable to hold his hand when we walk down the hallway together! Imagine kissing your best friend! (Some of you probably have, but it's really weird) And it's uncomfortable! I don't want to hurt his feelings by telling him this, but... what if, one day, he takes our relationship seriously and tries to plant one on me..? I THINK he feels uncomfortable about us dating too. I don't even know the answer to this anymore. How is it that I can give my friends advice about relationships and other things, but I can't even take my own advice? Do I not have feelings for him? I don't know... Or maybe I just don't like him that way and want to continue being friends...? I think it's a mixture of both... I need some answers or a sign. Better yet a clue! CAN SOMEONE GIVE ME A CLUE?! PLEASE?! 

'Rents & School are sooo OVERRATED!

Ok, so my mom went away on a business trip for 4 days! 4 days didn't seem to be long enough, but at least, I could get a break from the yelling, screaming, and the continuous arguing! But there would be more arguing because my Uncle and Grandmother were there!! (My grandmother is living with us and my uncle is just...there) "Don't forget to do this, don't forget to do that!" Why is it that I get stuck with everything??? I mean, I'm not the only one there! And I totally don't the time to do the things that they tell me to do. I'm trying to juggle 3 sports, school, my first job, and a few extra classes that I don't have to take when I go to college! FML! I have no life. And then, the funny thing is that they expect me to do every single thing! I have a sister, but she's just sitting on the couch and watching t.v. If you want something done, do it yourself. But I guess parents are as lazy as kids are. Whatever. Anyway, my mom was away for 4 days, and I took advantage of it. I stayed up later than usual trying to complete my homework, I came home later than usual (because of my sports) and my grandmother didn't bitch!!!! ^^ Thank you! :) But I wanted a break and definitely needed some sleep, but no sleep for me. 5 projects  due on the same day with about 2 weeks to do them, 3 7 paged papers due, and then a lacrosse game that I had to play in! WOW! I'm a machine! And in a minute, I'm about to break down. :/ I'm sleep deprived, hungry, and still waiting for my break. Hopefully it will come soon, because going to bed at like 2-3 o' clock in the morning and waking up at 6 to  get ready for school is not cool! 


My mom sent me a few messages and even called a few times, I was glad to hear her voice and hear that she was having a good time! But even from a long distance she still had to boss me around. (WTF?!) I did what I had to do to keep the house in shape, but apparently that wasn't enough. What more can I give or do to make these people happy?! My time will come where I WILL TAKE A BREAK AND REST! And have some time with myself. I mean I'm a teenager, and privacy is the last thing that parents want to give them, but c'mon!! Seriously? Privacy is just me in my room. But no I don't have a room to myself, I have to share a room! With an annoying little girl that is called a 'sister'. UGH!! And guess who has the 3rd bedroom....My grandmother! Why did my mom have to call her up her to watch us?! I'm nearly 16, I don't need a babysitter! WTF?!!! But parents will be parents. W/E :P